Lonely, shy, quiet

I'm back in Bergen (Norway) again now since May, and i will stay here for a while. It's been bad weather here in Bergen lately (10°C or so and rain most of the time), so not really summer weather. Yesterday (and some other days) it was better though, with sun and i guess 15°C (still cold!).

But i couldn't enjoy the beautiful weather to the fullest.

I feel lonely.

When i lived in Belgium i had my bf to do stuff with, going places and just talking with. Now i don't have that (except for my family ofc, but that's not the same :x). I'm quite shy and i rarely take initiative to start talking or doing stuff with people, i wait for people to contact me and invite me on stuff. I'm also not the most fun person to be around. In groups i wait for my turn to talk most of the time, which somehow almost never happens, or i have the awkward moment where i talk at the same time as another person (which is rude of me to do), or i simply don't know what to say or i don't dare to say anything, so i stay silent and just listen to what the other people has to say (this happens most frequently). It's a bit better when i'm just with another person since it's easier to get space to talk then, but sometimes then too i don't know what to say.

I've joined a lot of facebook groups where on some of the groups i am invited on events (when they invite all the people who are in the facebook group). Sometimes i go, sometimes i don't go. It's atleast nice for me to know whats going on nearby so i can decide if i want to join or not, even if i don't know any people there. So since i'm back in Norway i've joined a lecture about climate challenges on the university, watching the movie "Pride", going in the Rainbow march (Pride march), and meeting other vegans couple of times. On the lecture, the movie and in the march i was alone. On the vegan meetings i'm part of the group, and it's nice to getting to know them a bit.

From the Pride march

I've also started talking a bit more on facebook. Not a lot, but more than nothing. Normally i just "liked" stuff xD I've also started adding some other vegans as friends on facebook, even though i've never talked with them before, and after i add them i still don't talk with them xD

So if anyone is in the mood feel free to send me a message on facebook or on this blog xD I like chatting with people, i just don't like taking initiative, so i appreciate every time anyone sends me a message and talks with me =D